bumped

I just lost my accommodation booking for the very first part of my trip.

Apparently payment wouldn't go through because my credit card bill payment hadn't transacted so I'd hit my credit limit when I put all of my trip expenses on the same account. So I made a payment-in-lieu to the bank to up my credit limit temporarily and hoped that the rest of my bookings wouldn't fail. Thinking that there wouldn't be any issue since the host had already interviewed me and had given me her approval once before, I wrote back asking her to please re-approve my request to book her premises for my stay.

24 hours passed and no approval. I sent her a message immediately upon request time out. She replied immediately telling me that her apartment may no longer be available for my requested duration. Then early this morning, I received her confirmation message, telling me that it's not going to work out.

When I first got an inkling that I was going to get "dumped", I had to sit myself down and not freak out. I was really happy to have found this place because firstly there weren't very many options in that area. Secondly, its location and price made it all the more precious. I wouldn't need a car and it would really help on the expenses. (The next available option was to check in at Holiday Inn, which is close by but about 40% more expensive.) My trip with the cheaper accommodation was already hitting the roof of my budget.

No explanations? No sympathetic apology? Just sayin'...

The other thing pending is for my flight to Redding. Prices have been climbing every few days and I had managed to secure tickets that were cheapest (at that point) and with the best itinerary. I received an email acknowledgement but I was to wait for a confirmation receipt. It has been about 5 days since, and I have not received it.

As of now, I haven't found options yet. A wittle-itty-bitty thing like this had cast a shadow on my purposefulness. The thought that this trip is much too dramatic for my little life and way too expensive, and that I have zero capacity to commit to this life-turning journey when I return from my twenty days goaded me.

I admit that my emotions are disproportionate to this bump in the road. I guess partly it's because I had spend weekend after weekend searching and planning for the best itinerary, feeling the burn from the expenses and what I've had to shelve to pay for this trip. But I didn't really feel better until I said out loud "but no lah, this is not gonna stop me lor!" Insert 'wah lau eh' expression.

Joy, o joy. What has Daddy God planned for me? :)